Physically, Nathan had never experienced anything like Finn. Although they hadn’t gone entirely the whole way, they were so damn close it hurt, and they couldn’t get enough of each other.
The biology girls took it in turns to comment on just how cute they were as a couple and inevitably turned the fairly shy Finn bright red. Nathan loved watching his boyfriend go red; loved having a relationship that wasn’t hidden like those fleeting clandestine meetings he’d had back in his home town. Despite his family and close friends being aware, that place was so not the place to push loud and proud.
Mentally they were so alike; both good with computers and what drove them. Whilst it was Finn who recognised the beauty and poetry of the code they wrote, it was Nathan who had the analytical eye. Together they were a flawless team. Word of their project preceded them and a buzz began to spread around the campus, spreading out from the IT geeks and passing into Biology, Chemistry, Physics.
The two of them had something special, something about making graphics better in games, some programme or something. Most of it was way above campus gamer’s heads but apparently this thing had the potential to revolutionise gaming.
MIT was used to the best and the brightest, but something shone when people saw them together, possibility. And they told Nathan that every chance they got. From Professors, to friends, everyone was rooting for them.
And in two months time, Nathan would be presenting the work as his first year final exam and people had started to get excited about it already.
Everyone that is except Nathan himself, who was starting to get anxious, and despite any reassurances that Finn gave him, he was quite frankly scared.
“What if we run out of time for testing?” He said several times. ”We shouldn’t spend so much kissing and shit, we should be testing,” was kissed away in an instant by a completely supportive Finn. Finn who felt that pushing his boyfriend back on the bed and covering his body in kisses was the answer to every problem.
And when kissing and biting and sucking turned into the most incredible blow job Nathan had ever experienced? Well testing just went straight out of his head.
Andrew was another thorn in Nathan’s side, it was a given that he was good at what he did, which was taking other people’s projects and making them shine. He showed nothing but happiness at the Nathan / Finn relationship, despite Nathan thinking privately that he’d so lost out on Finn’s frankly quite amazing blowjobs.
The thing was, Andrew had quite literally been where Nathan hadn’t and he was unsure why Finn was reluctant to take their own relationship that one step further.
That was the reason for their first argument. Nathan used Andrew in the argument and Finn just closed down. It was like a trigger word or something.
“What Andrew and I had was just fucking, just quick and dirty and a release. What we have is nothing like that.”
“Still Finn, I can’t understand why. I mean if we both want it, let’s just go for it.”
“I don’t.”
“Don’t what?” Nathan was so not following this conversation.
“Don’t want it,” Finn said finally.
Nathan stood, his mouth open, totally stunned by what Finn had just said.
“You … you don’t want it? What? Ever?” Nathan sounded comically horrified.
Finn slumped visibly and turned to his desk dismissing the discussion. ”I don’t wanna talk about it,” he said, almost coldly.
“Finn, I love you, it wouldn’t be just fuckin'” Nathan begged, this cold Finn scared him.
Visibly pulling himself together, Finn turned to face Nathan, his features carved from stone. ”Just go, Nathan, I’m serious, take your romantic notions of fucking and just go.”
“Finn.”
“I’m serious, just leave me alone.”
And borne on disappointment and anger, Nathan did just that.
He left.
>> New post every Monday, watch this space
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